Who I am.

I write about the landscape of grief, nature, and the wisdom of fools. The author of four books, my essays, poems, and reviews have been published in over 50 journals, including in the Huffington Post and Colorado Review. I’ve won the River Teeth Nonfiction Book Award, the Chautauqua and Literal Latte’s essay prizes, and my work has been nominated for four Pushcart Prizes and named a notable by Best American Essays. My account of hiking in Yosemite to deal with my wife’s death, Mountains of Light, was published by the University of Nebraska Press. http://www.markliebenow.com.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Love Before Grief


In grief we focus on how a relationship ends and all of the sorrow. We forget how the relationship began, the uncertainties, our timidity, the rush of excitement. Our utter delight and joy. In addition to thinking about the larger context of grief and death in society, it’s also important to remember our personal stories of heart. This is how Evelyn and I began.

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I first saw Evelyn at a conference in Santa Rosa, a year after I moved from Wisconsin to California for graduate school. She was singing a solo while I was performing short dramas in a mime troupe. (I know what you’re thinking. It’s okay. I studied classical Balinese mime with Leonard Pitt.) The power and purity of her voice spun my head around to watch a beautiful, young woman. She noticed me, too, and wondered what lay beneath my rainbow suspenders. I took note, but didn’t know who to ask to introduce us.

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2 comments:

  1. I love your sweet story about how the two of you met and fell in love. I used to tell my husband that it was 'fate' or syncronicity, that we met. But he said he didn't believe in those things. It sounds like the two of you were meant to be together. And you are right, it was not long enough. It never is. xx

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    1. No, it's never long enough, whether it's one year, five years, eighteen, or sixty. When we love someone we want it to be forever.

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